Already the end of the year???

Today's song of the day: "The Way You Do the Things You Do" - The Temptations

I love the Temptations. They never cease to have the ability to make me smile!! This song isn't all that pertinent to today's post, and I had a hard time picking between the Temptations songs I have in my itunes, but they made such wonderful feel good / be optimistic music!

Speaking of being optimistic, I am very much so in anticipation of the coming year. A new year brings new beginnings and new possibilities! As promised I will have a list of my resolutions, but that is for tomorrow. Today I have been inspired to talk about what I have or haven't achieved in the last year out of my resolutions list. Unfortunately, I don't remember any of my resolutions from this time last year. Instead, I have decided to make a top ten list of things I have accomplished this year, inspired by none other than Jay Leno himself. I doubt they'll be in any kind of importance order, just so you know.

10) I got back into music hardcore after re-realizing my love for it, and am working towards a degree in Music Therapy now!

9) I have finally started playing my guitar fairly regularly and am slowly but surely getting better!

8) I became a full blown coffee addict. Some may see this as a bad thing, but have you ever realized how great coffee is? I warms you up, wakes you up, and you can take an international trip with just a cup, smell, or sip of coffee!

7) I have finally gained the confidence to not date a guy that is crappy for me. It took two not-so-great guys this year for that to happen, but I have confidence in myself and am happy without a relationship. Who needs guys anyways? They smell!

6) That being said, I have gained unknowable amounts of self-esteem! Thank you music and my little German voice teacher.

5) I read more than five books for pleasure!

4) I made it through a semester of nannying for a family with two kids that are 9 and 10 and different genders. Need I even mention that they fought a lot?

3) I Competed in a multiple state singing competition. I didn't get very far, but I did well for me.

2) I found out I'm not half bad at soccer!

1) I started a blog!

Cheesy as this may be, I feel a little bit more accomplished now, and narcissistic. 

Stress

This is an awesome cover of Jack Johnson's "While We Wait" which is today's song of the day!

So tonight I started to get a bit stressed about life. Coming up before the end of the week is New Years....it's already almost 2010!! Then my dad's birthday is right after that. Issue number one, I have no plans for New Year's Eve. Said boy I blogged about yesterday is hunting with family for the rest of the week. I did call him though! I feel empowered. Issue number two, I am a bit stretched for cash, and haven't gotten my dad a birthday present yet. He and I don't exactly get along all the time, but I know if I don't get him something my mom, whom I'm really close to, will gripe and complain.
While all this is going on in my mind, I can't help but wish I was back in school already. I really do love it. I am ready for this next semester to be underway and to get moving on into the next part of my life. You see, I am trying to get a job over the summer that would allow me to travel for two months over the summer, and would be an amazing opportunity. If I get it, I will only have 5 more months of living here! But 5 months is not a very long time at all! Then I have started stressing about how I am going to get everything organized in 5 months. I have to finalize transferring to one of two schools that I have yet to decide between, keep working on a job I have yet to find, audition, find a place to live in the fall, if needed buy furniture for said living arrangement, and then get ready to live out of a suitcase for two months, only to come home for two weeks at most then move out!!!
If anyone is out there, how do you deal with stress? How do you make major decisions?

coming soon, Resolutions 2010...

Biz Markie Nostalgia / List of 6

Today's song: "Just a Friend" - Biz Markie

Tonight I took a walk down memory lane into high school and the guys I dated, and this song is a good tool to open up some of those memories I had hidden. I am in college now, so it's not so much that the song takes me back to when it came out, but where/when I heard it was more important. The first time I heard this song I was a freshman in high school I and dating this guy who also happened to be my first real boyfriend, who then broke up with me on Valentine's Day. Needless to say, he was the first in a pretty long line of dating mistakes.
I have come to realize I have a crazy dating record, but doesn't everyone? I mean you aren't dating those people in your past anymore for some reason. Even if it wasn't your choice to end the relationship you can appreciate what you learned from them and eventually come to terms that it wasn't meant to be.
Through my trip down memory lane, I have come to realize that I am a seriously awkward person when it comes to dating guys. Especially in the early stages of dating, my self-confidence disappears and I become very unsure of myself. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only girl out there that this happens to. I am confident in talking with someone as a friend, but then as soon as I decide I have a crush on them, I get all awkward when I try to make plans to get to know them better. I know I need to just buck up and do it, but I am scared to death of rejection. I know everyone is to an extent, but my heart starts racing and I lose all hope of nerve I might have ever had.
Why is it that the media feeds us with this false sense of perfect love? I am such a sucker for those sappy movies that make finding love really simple. All it takes is chemistry, and one sad event that tears you apart but after the guys come chasing you down you both live happily ever after. Real life is not like that. Unfortunately, love is not simple or easy. In my opinion it takes more than a little flirting and good feelings. But as I have previously disclosed, I have a terrible dating record. Who am I to be giving dating advice? Obviously I am no one accredited, but I do know about dating badly, so if the opposite is done, who's to say I couldn't be an expert on good dating ?
I have decided to turn over a new leaf in my dating life though, and I have a list of things I think a guy should encompass for me to have a steady relationship with him. I would love to hear from anyone and hear their lists of musts! (if anyone is reading this)...
My list of 6:
1) Religion - I love my faith and relationship with God, and need a guy who can understand that and hope to have a guy who can I can share a faith with.
2) Laughter - Laughter is essential in my everyday life. I need someone who can make me laugh and can understand my sense of humor, which ranges from poop humor to a dry/sarcastic feel.
3) Decisiveness - I am one of the most indecisive people I know, and need someone who is not going to get upset if he has to make decisions.
4) Sense of self - Someone who knows who they are, what they believe, and what they stand for. Confidence in this is a major thing for me. I like guys who think for themselves.
5) Communication skills - From my lovely experiences in the past, communication is key in a relationship. You must be able to hold a conversation with me and others, but more importantly be able to share feelings and emotions.
6) Love of Music - I am such a music nerd. I don't need the guy to understand every word of my nerdiness, but to accept me in my nerdiness and have an appreciation in his own way for music.
"Music and rhythm find their way into the secret places of the soul" - Plato

Welcome into my mind!

Welcome!

I got an early start on my New Years' Resolution!
I was a bit inspired by Julie & Julia, but this will not be a cooking blog. This will be a look at my life via music, since I am obsessed with any and all types of it. I sing and sort of play guitar and piano (I'm working on both at the moment).
Here's the goal: Every day, assign a song somehow to describe my day then explain why I chose it...I may include some or all lyrics. So on to today!


Today's song of the day: "The Story" - 30 Seconds to Mars - Jared Leto's voice.....ahhh

I am starting something new in my life with this blog, and am trying to do a little self discovery in the process.
"And I swear to God
I'll find myself
In the end"
Hopefully by this time next year we all will know a little bit more about me and the music that has helped me along the way! I am trying to decide where to transfer to next fall from my community college I'm in now, and am trying to decide on a few other things at the moment, so this song fits me nicely right now. Also the acoustic version is to die for. I highly recommend looking at the link I posted. Fun fact time! I used to dislike 30 Seconds to Mars when I was first introduced to them by my boyfriend at the time 3 1/2 years ago. And it really wasn't until recently when I learned to appreciate them. As I mentioned I have an obsession with music, but there are bands and artists that I don't particularly like, but I will listen to anything at least once, if not twice to give them a chance. If asked, I will give any artist a chance. I am partial to acoustic music :)